Few days ago, the gums on my lower wisdom tooth started aching. I went to the dentist near Elvis’s clinic and Mr. Dentist said I have to remove the upper wisdom tooth because it’s growing out and pressing on the gums below.

Of all horrors (needles to stick into your mouth!) my exams r this sat (tomorrow to be exact) and I HAVE to remove this problem! So the next day, Mr. Dentist injected 2 needles into my mouth and forcefully pulled the tooth out. Ouch.

My tooth is HUGE!

So now I have to pop about 19 pills a day, have an occasional fever and deal with stupid exams altogether!

I miss real food!

I don’t know if its just the time of the night or because I know momo is going back to hong kong soon but I feel that things are just ever changing.

Nothing waits for u.

This time last year, I was a disaster. Torn and broken. So many people played a part in putting me together. After talking to mm both half drunk (actually she was drunk, I wasn’t even half tipsy) I realise that there are just so much out there. Beyond our usual ultra-boring routine. I guess I am lucky; the people I meet are (almost) always so awesome.

mm is right. I am my own biggest critic.

And she’s right too; we should keep people who appreciate us around us. Because these are the people who are able to pull thru with u through though sticky horrible situations. They are the people who support you, guide you and simply love you for who you are.

The world is already such a horrible place. If this person calls him your friend, then he should in no way, bring u unhappiness. This applies for relationships as well.

There are times when I need to say. Fuck it. Go suck an egg.

My hong kong trip is so super awesome. I simply love and adore holidays where I DO NOT have to work or worry about it at all. U get to eat sleep and shop till you get broke. Super cool.

Exams are next sat which explains why I am still up. There are so many things I miss doing. Talking to Irene and hear her endless indecisive thoughts, laugh with shee young, see the cutest vera & valerie, get together with my best friends again (which seems remotely possible), talk to glennis about something serious, see han …

Thank you mm and ro for such a wonderful night. And thank you momo, for giving me confidence. I’ll miss you.

I have tried my best to accommodate to be flexible and to be positive but things in this world sometimes just don’t work out the way u want them to be.

And it’s at times like this when u need someone to stand up for you and say things are going to be perfectly fine.

my constant struggle? to keep up with myself.

When i was working in Adecco, someone once told me i ask for too much from myself, i wanted nothing but perfection and to carry one task too many on my young shoulders.

In some ways, my hard work has paid off. moonies hit sky high this month, higher then i was ever paid when i held 3 jobs at one go. i know it may be just luck but hey, it is the pearls of sweat.

i understand for somepeople, life is just the way it is. simple and sweet.

I used to think and be that way too.

until i saw the lifestyle i hope to achieve (the shop till u die) and the things i really want to own (yes another bag). sometimes when i relook at the things i am holding onto, work (increasing by the minute) school(exams this month and assignments) tuition(i need to buck up!) guitar(utter failure to date) books(2 to read excluding textbooks) friends (a never ending list to catch up with) family (neglector) sleep (7 is just not enough).

But sometimes the last thought in my mind ends like this. I am, afterall, still a little girl at 23.