July

'You look pregnant. But you are not pregnant, you are just fat.' 

And he signed me up for gym.

Such is married life.

Interior designer

It's so hard to find a designer who understands my kind of crazy. 

Thank god I've found a husband who does!

The end thank you for watching

And today marks the day they head back to the US. 

I wonder what life would be like in 2016. 

The killers

And so 21st September marks a day I checked an item off my bucket list. 

When I saw them on stage in person, it felt so surreal. The excitement on the ground was so intense I thought I was going to self combust! 

Although all I could intake was man stink mixed with humidity, no amount of exhaustion could stop me from hopping. 

And so I woke up today at 1 in the afternoon with a sore throat and a broken body.

Can we do this again? 

Losing a home

The title says it all. Very soon I gotta pack up all my 28 years of crap and find somewhere to store them.

Annoyingly, I can't seem to swallow my fucking pride and suck it up. I can't hold my facial expressions when I get so much grief.

It's depressing really. Not to have a place to go home to.

Home

Stress is tiring. It makes one loses sleep.

Hope gives us strength.

Love keeps us going.

Backdated post

So, I'm sipping carrot juice out of a juice box (wanted orange and grabbed the orange colored pack which turned out to be carrot).

I've survived another turbulence and I think is my fourth (?) lone travel on a plane. My first would be the business trip to Hong Kong when i was 20. Very silly I was back then.

Can't wait to see fat man and have my favorite desert.

XOXO

Oh the anticipation

1 more day to Bangkok.

39 days to Killers live.

47 days to being 29 (where has my twenties gone!)

157 days to D day.

Twenty Thirteen

I've never done a photo-shoot before. Surprisingly, it was more fun than I expected.

Despite a whole lot of changes due to weather, not so good tailoring and falsies falling off, we actually had a bucket load of laughers. 

Wan Sheng from Feldberyl is fantastic ad flexible throughout the rainy morning. If I haven't made a deposit with OEC for Jan, I would probably engage him again. Mind you, he ain't cheap. 

Go West

The Petshop Boys are coming!

Justification for emo-ing

Fuck. Another potential possibly I need to go for another op if the next scan confirms the dark shadow is not friendly.

I'm going to have pancakes at McDonald's across the road and sulk.

A little piece of heaven

Jeju is indeed.

The lovely blue skies, cool breeze kissing our cheeks and hot juicy sea food that tasted like the ocean greeted us. 

I've never really missed the company I've had after holidays. But I seem to be suffering from post holiday depression.

It could be the shit happening on the home front and the unavoidable fact that ill be losing a place to stay really soon.

It could be that work has became so mundane in a pace so slow I am unable to get used to the momentum. Wait, is there even a momentum? There is simpily no one to really talk to anymore. 

This time tomorrow I'll be in the lovely heat of Bangkok!

And on Fridays

I.love.gin.tonic.

Love love love

It has been a really good year.

I've been lucky enough to travel to quite a few places this year, made loads of new friends and stepped out of my comfort zone in Philips.

Granted, I missed the days where I have my team with me, days where I get to call the shots and have more responsibility on my hands. I loved being able to teach someone new things.

But in exchange, I have gained so much more.

I have more time with my mom, who is the best mom on earth (in my eyes of course!) Her love for us does not come in words or wise advices. Instead she displays them in the smallest form of action like washing my cup for me just because she knows I don't mind using and reusing it to death. Cleaning out my rubbish bin because she knows I procrastinates. Prays for our health during her weekly visit to her temple. Our family's her priority.

I managed to convince the younger brother to go back to school. Despite the years where we fought, strangled and cursed each other to death, I think there's still hope in that brainless one.

Friends from novena are lovely. I'm always getting free coffee treats from them! :D it's only been 2 months but they sure are a fun bunch.

Don't get me started on friend who are overseas. An SMS or picture update from them is enough to plant a smile on my face.

Christmas shopping, feasting over Korean BBQ and catching up over a gin tonic may be simple things but you people are just so much fun to hang out with.

May 2013 be as awesome, if not better!

Food and more food!

With cookies and presents in abundance I'm sure it's gonna be a great Christmas this year!

Of pain and sorrow

I got to know that an ex colleague of mine is going through a very rough patch. It is a story of a man who slipped into the shadows.

Somehow, it reminds me of how dark days were 5 or 6 years ago. I can comprehend the helpless, gut wrenching pain she has to endure. Not forgetting she has 2 young humans now resting in her hands.

How one can be so irresponsible I can never understand nor can I assent.

It is not the fact that you leave behind another, it's more of how you can turn your back without any rhyme or reason. Or for the lack of a better word, be a complete jackass and choose never to look the problem in the eye.

New year resolution

Things I want my lazy ass to do in 2013

Get that tattoo I have been wanting to since so many gazillion years ago.

Get started on driving license. Note to self: I am going to turn 30 REALLY SOON. 

Bring Elsie back to class on Saturdays. I miss the buzzing sound of sewing machines. This time I wanna make come pencil cases, cushions and curtains. 

Well that is not too long a list. 

I hope the new role does not require alot of overtime (if any at all) because I am starting to enjoy having my life back. 

One of the colleagues from Novena signed us up for a desert-making lesson at Holland V today. I never knew there was a stretch of (ahem atas looking) cooking-related shops in that area. All I remember of Holland Village is ice cream, beer, gin and a whole lot of merry (remember the stranger who tried to include himself in our pictures when we were in wala-wala?). 

So I am now equipped with the knowledge of how to make MOCHI, CHEESE CAKE (ok, actually I can't quite remember this one) and 'SWEE' LOOKING AGAR-AGAR JELLY. Of course the possibility of re-making is a near 0 because I do not have a kitchen to experiment in. 

I am officially a business hr no more. Things are changing pretty quick don't you think?

This time last year, I was still clocking a more than 12 hours a day job and if I remember correctly, making sure the go-live for Indon will go smoothly. 12 months on who will remember the legacy of the team who made it happen? I made a mental count and there's barely 9 faces I could recognize from the pictures the survivors put up on FB. 

But we are all in better places now and to me just this fact alone has made this year a more than fantastic one. 

XOXOXOXO

Reconnect.

I'm not sure if the void I feel when I am bored and alone is normal. And I think it's too odd a question (if the emotion can even be described) to ask the people around me.